I have been so horrible about blogging this year, but I thought that it would only be right for me to end the year here as I did last year. Overall 2013 has been good, bad, challenging and everything in between. I discovered things about myself that I like and also things that I don't like that much. I learned that I'm more caring than I give myself credit for, no matter how much of a hard tough exterior I pretend I have...I really do care about people in general. I also learned that there are some friends that you just need to let go, and it's okay to be sad about it, but never regret the decision you've made. Some people are only put into your life for a reason or a season. They are there to teach you the lesson you need to be taught and then move on, and hopefully be replaced by the people that are going to stay in your life for a lifetime. I noticed that I don't hang out with my friends a lot anymore and I don't know if that has something to do with a change in our relationships or the fact that we're all adults with working lives and some of us have children. The true meaning of friendship for me is not having to talk to the person every day, but when you do talk you pick up where you left off as if nothing ever changed.
It wouldn't be right for me not to include my online life in this post. I have met some of the best people online. The little brother's and sister's that I wish I had. It's funny how a common interest can cultivate bonds so strong and opens the door to discovering more about another person. These relationships are just as important to me as the relationships that I care for in my day to day life. They take effort and require the same care as any other relationship. You know who you are and I don't think I need to mention any names, I just want you all to know that I truly value all of you being a part of my life and I know that whenever I need to vent, bitch or cry you are all willing to lend a ear. I hope that you all know that I would do the same for you. If ever you're in need of advice or just need someone to listen, I'll always be here for you all. Here's to hoping that we learn more about each other and grow closer in 2014. I wish you all a very happy and blessed New Year.
Showing posts with label friendship. Show all posts
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Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
It's been a long time.....
Wow, it's been 6 months since i've blogged anything. There are many reasons for this, but the main reason would have to be that my laptop was broken. I have also been super busy with work and dealing with some emotional crap. The good news is that there are more good days than bad days. My anxiety has hit an all time high and it's to the point where I have to take medication just to fall asleep. Life is just tough sometimes, but it'll all be worth it in the end. I don't really know what inspired me to write this blog post, I guess there is just a bunch of stuff on my mind that I wanted to let out, but couldn't think of the proper channel to do so.
I used to be such a twitter addict, but I neglected twitter almost all summer it was a difficult decision, but I think that I needed a break. The thing that made it difficult was the fact that there are a few people on Twitter that I have connected with within the last 3-4 years. I consider them the little sister's I always wanted and never had, and I also gained some little brother's as well. I missed them during the time I was away from the internet trying to balance life and work. If you would have asked me 5 years ago if I thought it was possible to cultivate true and real friendships online with people who were thousands of miles away, I would have laughed, but I now know that it can happen and I want to take a moment to let those people know that I value and appreciate their friendship, and a lot of times they helped me get through some tough times in my life....even when I don't always show that things are difficult, they are always there with kind words or virtual hugs. I don't know if any of you are reading this, but if you are...you know who you are and I thank you and I look forward to meeting you all someday..... :)
I'll end this here for now, because I don't want to go into some of the deeper issues going on right now....
Until next time~
I used to be such a twitter addict, but I neglected twitter almost all summer it was a difficult decision, but I think that I needed a break. The thing that made it difficult was the fact that there are a few people on Twitter that I have connected with within the last 3-4 years. I consider them the little sister's I always wanted and never had, and I also gained some little brother's as well. I missed them during the time I was away from the internet trying to balance life and work. If you would have asked me 5 years ago if I thought it was possible to cultivate true and real friendships online with people who were thousands of miles away, I would have laughed, but I now know that it can happen and I want to take a moment to let those people know that I value and appreciate their friendship, and a lot of times they helped me get through some tough times in my life....even when I don't always show that things are difficult, they are always there with kind words or virtual hugs. I don't know if any of you are reading this, but if you are...you know who you are and I thank you and I look forward to meeting you all someday..... :)
I'll end this here for now, because I don't want to go into some of the deeper issues going on right now....
Until next time~
Saturday, June 9, 2012
The Story of Us...Part 1: The New Boy
She remembers it as if it was yesterday even though it was 17 years ago...
Walking in class on the first day of school, catching up with everyone she missed during the summer, when the soft voice of Ms. Jones broke through the chaos and alerted the children that there was a new student joining the class who had just moved there from Japan. There he was, a boy who was tall for his age, skinny with the look of uncertainty and fear upon his face. No one really paid attention or took much notice, but there was a girl who was giving her full attention, watching the boys demeanor and taking note of how frightened he appeared. This girl was by no means shy, she was bossy, up-front and in your face. Personality for days and seemed to draw people in. She wanted to be friends with everybody, and what she wanted, she usually was successful in getting. Big personality from such a little person.
The boy quietly made his way to the back of the classroom and took the empty seat in between the 2 class bullies. He was quiet and tried to keep to himself. The class went on and it seemed like everyone was falling back into the swing of things. Eager minds, eager to continue learning and playing. There was a commotion at the back of the classroom as Evan and Zach proceeded to throw paper balls and erasers at the new boy. The new boy sat there silent. The only emotion clear on his face was fear.
This went on for the last 30 minutes of class and as the bell rang and the children began to file out of the door, the spunky little girl remained in her seat and as Evan walked by she stuck her foot out and he went crashing to the floor. Zach walked by and she picked up her Jem and the Holograms thermos and threw it at his back. Neither of them uttered a word as they walked out of the classroom. She felt accomplished and proud of herself. She wasn't afraid of any boy and believed in protecting those who couldn't or were unwilling to help themselves.
The new boy had yet to leave the classroom and was collecting his papers from the desk. The girl looked back, gave him a shy smile and left the classroom for recess....her favorite part of the day. Outside in the sun, jumping rope and playing hopscotch with her friends, she was always aware of the little boy sitting against the fence, too shy to ask to join in. The PE teacher called a dodge ball game to order. They chose captains and the captains began to choose players. Of course since no one really knew the new boy, he was picked last. The new boy and the girl ended up on the same team. She noticed that he looked like he would rather be anywhere other than where he was at that moment. She gave him a reassuring grin and the game was started.
She noticed that Evan who was on the other team was taking special interest in the new boy, and not in a good way. Whenever he could he would hurl the ball as hard as he could at the new boy and in the spirit of team unity there was always someone on her team to shield him or gently push him out of the way. Now, the girl noticed Evan doing this and her blood began to boil. Evan didn't take the time to get to know the new boy so she couldn't figure out why he was being so cruel to him. The first chance she got, she grabbed a ball and hurled it at Evan and he was removed from the game. Now they could play in peace.
The game ended(the girls team lost) and recess ended. The afternoon went by fairly smoothly other than the brief argument that ensued between the girl, Evan and Zach as she told them that they should learn some manners. The last class ended and as they were walking out of the building the girl heard a small voice behind her.
"Thank you" she turned around and noticed that it was the new boy and it was the first time she heard him talk all day.
"For what?" the girl asked.
"For being nice to me." he said as he looked at his shoes.
She didn't quite understand because she hadn't really interacted with him, they shared awkward reassuring smiles throughout the day and she asked him to join in at recess, but she just thought she was doing the right thing, behaving how her parents had always taught her to behave.
"You're welcome!" she smiled at him showing him her missing tooth.
"My name is Yuta" the boy smiled back at her.
"I'm Sierra. You're going to be my friend" she stated matter-of-factly, not giving him a choice...after all, she was bossy.
He just looked at her and smiled and waved as he walked towards the car that was waiting for him. Sierra couldn't help but feel like she had made a good friend and as she waved back and skipped to her mom's car, she couldn't wait to tell her parents all about the shy little boy who she declared as her friend.
....and that's how it started, but wait...the story isn't over yet.....
That is the true story of how I met my best friend. I can't believe that I still remember every little detail about that day, and if that day had never happened, I don't know where I'd be today. I told Yuta that I was going to put "The Story of Us" up on my blog in sections, starting with how we met and touching on different milestones that we have reached together. I think this will be interesting for me and for him...a way to see how much of everything we really remember, and to possibly have it written where we can share it with other's in the future (hint...hint!).
.....see ya when the next page turns....
Sierra
Walking in class on the first day of school, catching up with everyone she missed during the summer, when the soft voice of Ms. Jones broke through the chaos and alerted the children that there was a new student joining the class who had just moved there from Japan. There he was, a boy who was tall for his age, skinny with the look of uncertainty and fear upon his face. No one really paid attention or took much notice, but there was a girl who was giving her full attention, watching the boys demeanor and taking note of how frightened he appeared. This girl was by no means shy, she was bossy, up-front and in your face. Personality for days and seemed to draw people in. She wanted to be friends with everybody, and what she wanted, she usually was successful in getting. Big personality from such a little person.
The boy quietly made his way to the back of the classroom and took the empty seat in between the 2 class bullies. He was quiet and tried to keep to himself. The class went on and it seemed like everyone was falling back into the swing of things. Eager minds, eager to continue learning and playing. There was a commotion at the back of the classroom as Evan and Zach proceeded to throw paper balls and erasers at the new boy. The new boy sat there silent. The only emotion clear on his face was fear.
This went on for the last 30 minutes of class and as the bell rang and the children began to file out of the door, the spunky little girl remained in her seat and as Evan walked by she stuck her foot out and he went crashing to the floor. Zach walked by and she picked up her Jem and the Holograms thermos and threw it at his back. Neither of them uttered a word as they walked out of the classroom. She felt accomplished and proud of herself. She wasn't afraid of any boy and believed in protecting those who couldn't or were unwilling to help themselves.
The new boy had yet to leave the classroom and was collecting his papers from the desk. The girl looked back, gave him a shy smile and left the classroom for recess....her favorite part of the day. Outside in the sun, jumping rope and playing hopscotch with her friends, she was always aware of the little boy sitting against the fence, too shy to ask to join in. The PE teacher called a dodge ball game to order. They chose captains and the captains began to choose players. Of course since no one really knew the new boy, he was picked last. The new boy and the girl ended up on the same team. She noticed that he looked like he would rather be anywhere other than where he was at that moment. She gave him a reassuring grin and the game was started.
She noticed that Evan who was on the other team was taking special interest in the new boy, and not in a good way. Whenever he could he would hurl the ball as hard as he could at the new boy and in the spirit of team unity there was always someone on her team to shield him or gently push him out of the way. Now, the girl noticed Evan doing this and her blood began to boil. Evan didn't take the time to get to know the new boy so she couldn't figure out why he was being so cruel to him. The first chance she got, she grabbed a ball and hurled it at Evan and he was removed from the game. Now they could play in peace.
The game ended(the girls team lost) and recess ended. The afternoon went by fairly smoothly other than the brief argument that ensued between the girl, Evan and Zach as she told them that they should learn some manners. The last class ended and as they were walking out of the building the girl heard a small voice behind her.
"Thank you" she turned around and noticed that it was the new boy and it was the first time she heard him talk all day.
"For what?" the girl asked.
"For being nice to me." he said as he looked at his shoes.
She didn't quite understand because she hadn't really interacted with him, they shared awkward reassuring smiles throughout the day and she asked him to join in at recess, but she just thought she was doing the right thing, behaving how her parents had always taught her to behave.
"You're welcome!" she smiled at him showing him her missing tooth.
"My name is Yuta" the boy smiled back at her.
"I'm Sierra. You're going to be my friend" she stated matter-of-factly, not giving him a choice...after all, she was bossy.
He just looked at her and smiled and waved as he walked towards the car that was waiting for him. Sierra couldn't help but feel like she had made a good friend and as she waved back and skipped to her mom's car, she couldn't wait to tell her parents all about the shy little boy who she declared as her friend.
....and that's how it started, but wait...the story isn't over yet.....
That is the true story of how I met my best friend. I can't believe that I still remember every little detail about that day, and if that day had never happened, I don't know where I'd be today. I told Yuta that I was going to put "The Story of Us" up on my blog in sections, starting with how we met and touching on different milestones that we have reached together. I think this will be interesting for me and for him...a way to see how much of everything we really remember, and to possibly have it written where we can share it with other's in the future (hint...hint!).
.....see ya when the next page turns....
Sierra
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
For...Yuta...You Make It Real...
So we decided to do this project where we post a song with the lyrics that describe what we have meant to each other over the years since our friendship-anniversary is coming up. After days and days of going through my iTunes library, i've finally found it. Listen to the lyrics very, very carefully. I think it explains EVERYTHING! I can't think of a song that could be any more PERFECT!
This is for you....I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'll be waiting for your response! (I can't believe that I actually beat you!) LOL
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Always...and...Forever...
Every day I'm reminded of the promises that I want to keep, and it makes it all easier knowing that I have someone that is going to stay with me. Always....and...forever.
This song means a lot to me, because of the lyrics and what they represent. I'm so grateful for the person who knows the answers without having to hear the questions. Someone who wants to make it all disappear, someone who knows my pretend smiles, someone who told me that "it's okay to trust in me"
This song means a lot to me, because of the lyrics and what they represent. I'm so grateful for the person who knows the answers without having to hear the questions. Someone who wants to make it all disappear, someone who knows my pretend smiles, someone who told me that "it's okay to trust in me"
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