Nightmares vs Reality

Doing a quick blog post as I lay in my bed. This quote came to mind because lately I've found it really hard to sleep. When I do end up falling asleep I sometimes feel like I'm stuck between reality and a nightmare. I've always struggled with insomnia so this isn't really anything new to me. It just seems like I'm exhausted all the time, but when it's time to actually go to sleep, I get bombarded with thoughts about life, love, work and everything in between.  It's frustrating and mentally exhausting,  but because this is life I have to go through the motions. You have bad days,  but you always remember that it can't rain forever. ...just wait for the rainbow. :)

Dear 16 year old Sierra....

Hello! It's been awhile. I had a conversation at work today about if we had to opportunity to write a letter to ourselves when we were 16, what would it say?  Well, I decided to make a blog entry about it, since it's something that I want to remain as a memory and maybe one day when my daughter is 16 I can let her read it, just so that she knows that it's okay to make mistakes and most of all...it's okay not to be okay <3 p="">


Dear 16 year old Sierra,

There is so much I want to say to you...so much I want to warn you about...so much I want to yell at you for, but it would all be for nothing. You'll have to experience these things in order for you to grow. I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that it won't hurt, that it won't be hard...because what you are going to encounter is going to be some of the most painful things a person of your age can go through. You're going to lose loved ones, you're going to lose friends, you're going to experience a heartbreak so deep that it'll feel as if you're dancing on the edge of death.  I'm late in writing this and I wish I had of written this when you were 13...14...15.  Any amount of time before now would have been better than this being late. I'm writing this to tell you that you're going to make it and you're going to be okay. You're going to make some stupid decisions when it comes to boys, but there will be one person beside you through it all who is going to hold you, rub your back when you cry, pick you up when you're down.  He is a really amazing man and you don't know that now and you won't know for several years, but when you do find out, it's going to answer some of those really tough questions and you'll understand why you had to go through what you're going through.  Sixteen is supposed to sweet, but for you...it'll end up sour. The important thing is....you're going to make it and you're going to grow up to be the woman that you've always wanted to be. If I could give you one more piece of advice it would be: Live every single day with no regrets, roll with the punches and when you do fall down, don't drag other's down into the gutter with you. Climb out of that dark and scary place, brush yourself off, put on that amazing smile and walk tall with your head held high and know that you are just who you were always meant to be....a fighter.

Love,
Your future amazing self <3 p="">