Two Hearts

Today  (11/5/2012) was a really good day. I'm all smiles. I was able to do a lot and say a lot. I've found some understanding and some answers and they were inside of two hearts. We finally left my house for an extended time today. We went to the mall, walked around and people watched. We had ice cream, pretzels and then we went for sushi. We avoided New Seoul Garden, because we really didn't want to see anyone we knew. We ended up going for a couple drinks and to karaoke....just the two of us. It felt good...even though I know that this bubble we've built around ourselves can't last forever and eventually I'm going to have to share him with other people...I'm really enjoying having this time with him. He knew that I needed it, because he made no plans with anyone for this entire first week that he's been here. I was having a hard time, and he knew it. I wish I could post it all here...everything that was going on with me, but I can't put it into words...I just wasn't in a good place emotionally. Have you ever been sleep and thought you were crying in your dream, but it turns out you were crying for real? I was waking up with tears running down my face, and it wasn't a quiet cry with a few tears, it was a full breakdown. It was happening every night, but in the last 4 nights it's only happened once, and Yuta is was there to shake me awake and let me know that everything is okay. I haven't told my parents about this happening, because I don't want to worry them...as always. I only wish I could remember what I was dreaming about when this happens. 

I'm so thankful for Yuta, because even though he's so jet lagged, he is still doing everything I want him to do without complaints. So, thank you Yuta for being my gym partner, my dance partner, my guardian during my doctor's appointments, my strength coach during physical therapy....my best best best best best best best friend! I could not have made it through the last few days without you! :) 

"the road we walk side by side, and the scenery same as usual…

your smile brighten them all.

each time when the bottom of our hearts colored, I confirm my feelings for you which never change.

we’ll never release our hands we hold strongly.

I seize whole of overflowing light and shadow. 

the desired future, and the other side of darkness…

let’s go to see them together.

I’m sure that we can go anywhere.

the answer is always inside of two hearts.

(the number of nights spreads the distance from our beginning.)

when you may forget it, just listen carefully.

the important thing is always close to you, so you are not alone.

I can hear our two heart beats.

I always stare at your eyes deeply, and I’ll never look away.

I gather your spilled tears and smiles.

we can share the pain of our past and the dither of our tomorrow.

I’m sure that we can go anywhere.

the answer is always inside of two hearts.

we’ve chosen it to greet this moment.

the answer we found can’t settle in “fate” or “destiny”.

we’ll never release our hands we hold strongly.

I seize whole of overflowing light and shadow.

the desired future, and the other side of darkness…

let’s go to see them together.

anywhere is alright (even though any place).

I’m sure that we can go anywhere.

the answer is always inside of two hearts."

Daichi Miura-Two Hearts