Reconnecting

Reconnecting....disconnecting....reconnecting again. That's what I've been doing the last few days. I've avoided Twitter and most other social media sites. When this is published, it'll be my first time back after some pretty amazing days. I just want to let you all know that things are really looking up for me. Yuta is back and I've been spending every waking moment talking to him, listening to him, living with him, watching him...being with him. It's funny, our mom's called today and asked when we were going to finally come out of hiding. We can't be torn apart right now. The late night cooking sessions, the heart to heart talks, the silly dancing around the house, the late night movie sessions laying on the couch with blankets, pillows, a big bowl of popcorn, a beer for him and a glass of wine for me. These are some of the things I've been enjoying since he came back on Friday. Eating at our favorite places, walking in our favorite park, going to our secret place. The place where we would go when we were upset about something, happy about something, or celebrating something. The spot where he told me that they were moving the Japan. It's usually so fast paced when he comes back. He's off to meet up with some of his guy friend's who've missed him or our parents plan these family days. This time has been slow for us. Slowly reconnecting and just enjoying each other.

I can't get the words out that I really want and need to say. I guess I'm not ready for everyone to know yet. I want to keep this to myself for a little while. Just this once I want to be selfish and only think about what I want. Just let me keep this one thing to myself and in my heart for a little while longer. I'm so happy, I feel like if I share it, it'll somehow disappear. It's really cold these day's, but I'm warmer than I've ever been. I'm radiating heat from the inside out. Life is tricky, it's the hardest thing you'll ever encounter. The trick is meeting people and cultivating relationships that make life worth it. I think I've finally found the perfect recipe and it's come at the perfect time. I won't make this blog post any longer than it needs to be, because the more I write, the more I want to shout the words that I want to keep to myself.

I can't promise that I'll be as active as before on Twitter during this time(at least not on my public account, which this blog is linked to). I'll post some interesting things on my private account though. I'll be back soon, until then......