I'm Back....

Back from my Japan trip...it was amazing. I'll go into more detail later. The written portion of the trip will be posted here, pictures and video will be on my wordpress blog because....well... wordpress has better privacy functions. Let me know if you want the link, I think everyone I regularly talk to has it. I could be wrong though. lol....anyway, this was like a wasted post, but i wanted to write somethingggg. Having really bad jet lag, so I'm going to sit down with my tea and work on my emo blog post about everything that happened during my trip. Look forward to it! :)


Sierra~

Next Stop.....日本

AHHHHHH! I can't believe that it is finally time....a few more hours and I'll be on my way to my second home...the place that holds so many pieces of my heart....Japan. I can't wait to walk through the airport terminal and be greeted by those who love me the most! I can't even contain my excitement right now. lol....I'll try to update a few times on my phone while i'm there. I won't be using my computer often, because there is someone who is tracking my ip-address and I really don't want him to know where I am. My friend assured me that he put something on my computer and phone that would make this person believe that i'm at home, when i'll really be thousands of miles away. Pfft...what am I worried about that for?!? I'm going to see my bestiesssss, my heart, my happiness, my everything! I'm outta here for now. Be prepared for tons of pictures of sakura and FOOD! 


Catch me if you can!!!!!
Sierra~

Sleep....

I don't think I'll be getting much of that tonight, but on a different note....
I ended up looking at apartments in Tokyo....I wonder what that could mean....
It is only planned to be a visit, but i'm looking for apartments....
Change can be good.....right?

Are You...Wishing?

Today was a rough day for me...I'm still having thoughts about Lee and today my mom didn't make it any better. I haven't mentioned to her that I've been thinking about him a lot lately so her comment caught me by surprise. I was on on break at work and my mom and her friend stopped by to bring me lunch since I had to take my car to the mechanic during my lunch hour. There were sitting in my office and my mom was brushing my hair and we were just talking randomly about my job and what we were going to do this weekend and then my mom just said "You know, she is going to get back together with Lee." Then her friend started asking me questions about his sister and if I've talked to him lately. It took everything in me not to break down and cry. 
My mom loves Lee...a lot. He was really the first boyfriend that she approved of and finally seeing me happy...made her happy and that's why when it ended...I hid it from her as long as I could, because things haven't been the same since. I don't smile as often...I'm depressed more. It's just bad, but how can I make it work? Her saying that simple statement nearly broke me down. If we both thought it was possible for us to work it out and adjust our schedules...then we would, but we can't see that right now. I really miss him though and I just hope and wish that it gets easier.
Two of my girls from Japan are coming into town on December 10th and I'm so excited for girl time! It will be just me and the girls until Yuta gets here on December 18th. I haven't seen my girls since I was in Japan last year. I really miss them and I'm glad that they are coming to visit me! 
In other  news..... since I've become so unhappy and depressed here and my parents are extremely worried about me...I might be moving to Japan....well, not forever ....but I'll probably be there for 6 months to a year. I'll be staying with Yuta and his parents. I think it could be a good change for me and I have a lot of friends there that can help me get out of this hole that I've seemed to have fallen into....
I'll keep you updated.....